unexpected spurting

i knew it!

i told myself, "don't go on there..don't go and read what's up"
but noooo, i had to, thinking that if i read it there might be some interesting stuff there that would possible NOT affect me.

but ohhhh no. i read it and *knife action* right in the middle of my *bah-bum..bah-bum..bah-bum* heart.

STUPID THING TO DO!
why choose today of all days to read up on it.

you haven't in ages..but today had to be the day!

anyways, funny thing is.. i got cut open and my imaginary blood started spurting out (spurting..is that a word?) and i found the only way to lessen the..blood-spillage.. was to write about it.

and its actually working.. typing this out and making it sound all..weird.. is actually helping it go away.

anyways, my point is.. 1.things really do happen unexpectedly..well, for me it has. I though that such a small act wouldnt affect me. but it did. it bugged me for the whole dayyyy

"adding a reactant causes a net forward reaction..POP..damnit! im trying to study"

that was me trying to study and it poped into my head.

2. things happen for a reason.. me reading up on something that bugged the hell out of me was meant to happen. im supposed to learn something from this.. *thinks* yes..it will help me get on with my life. these are the painful steps i will take to rid you from my system. its natural. right?

but yea, *deep breaths* i think im fine now
i was just shocked thats all.

wow, i have a chemistry SAC tomorrow..i should really start studying..

effin shitake mushrooms! all i gotta say is GOOD LUCK, and i temporarily hate you.. but thats my way of "getting over it" cos it doesnt seem to happen when im thinking "nice" things about you.

i think its easier to get over things when you dont even like it.

anyways, this is jumping all over the place.

so ill leave you by saying.. i love you & i hate you. life is unfair, but dont we live in a world thats meant to be fair? sooo.. read this slowly, so you can try make sense of what i think.. maybe we're meant to think and believe that life is unfair so that we are able to accept such..um, terrible-things-that-cause-us-pain sorta stuff. if we lived to believe that life was fair, we wouldnt get far, cos life doesnt run on a straight line, its has its bumps. soooo..i have no idea anymore what im saying so if you kinda understood that..GREAt! at least you did ha

Peace&Love

Love right now

Not a Second to Waste by A Rocket to the Moon

<3

Simply..

So howdy do!
Making this short and simple. There have been moments when I've wanted to write but there has been no such motivation, or, as people say, "inspiration". Yea, I used to write during those deep, "emo" moments.. and who really wants to feel that way.

So I guess there's that relation. I want to write, but that fear of feeling those emotions are hindering that. So all I can say is that eventually, I'll be able to write again.. No one has to read it, but when I feel I'm ready to face those "challenges"..I'll rant like no tomorrow. Only a few people have heard me rant..and that's when, I think, you truly get to know how I..run..lol.

But chyeaa, I really want to use writing as a release.. And that's something I'm working on. And I'm happy to say that I'm so closeeeee!

After all, we have this life to live.. Don't waste it. Find what makes you happy and chase after it.. really, if its meant to be and "part of your plan in life" it'll happen.
You're given the opportunity, it's pretty much your decision on what to do about it.

I'm not a huge believer in luck (although I'm a hypocrite and SOMETIMES..sometimes, I'll use that as an excuse), but I really think that things happen for a reason. That you learn from you're mistakes and regrets..can you even call them mistakes? They're opportuinties to learn and become a much better person. After all, its the people and experiences that makes you who you are.

So much for short and simple.. lol

So chyeaa, be back soon, I'm certain.

Peace&Love


Listening to: If Only They Knew - A Rocket to the Moon

first & nothing special

There are times when I feel like writing, unfortunately, this isn't one of those times. Not in the mood, and plus, not much time to think..or..I just don't want to think..yea, I think that's the major reason. So I'm just going to post a video link of a song i really love at the moment.

The Climb remake by David Sides feat. Ahmir

Enjoy (:

Peace&Love