i like this..

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You’ve been my sunshine when all my clouds were grey.

I’m sorry for the times i acted like you weren’t there. I’m sorry for the hurt. I’m sorry for the the pain I’ve caused. I didn’t mean to hurt you.

Its the situation love has to go through at times. Someone that you know was always there but never noticed it until you heard the hurt and fear they felt all that time. Its hard to let go, Not sure why. Is there something there ? or maybe you’re the friend I will never let go of. Time should tell me. Its been too long. Its been way too long for me to leave you like this. It hurts to be in this situation.

A brother told me, God wouldn’t put us in something we cannot go through.

The hurt, The pain. I never meant to put you through this. I’m sorry.

my biffle.

For my bestfriend.

We go perfect together just like a substate and an active site. We'll go through every reaction together and come out of it still intact, still together, ready for other reactions that come our way and need us. One cannot function without the other, and together things work quicker than usual. Remember that substrates have their specific active sites and vice-versa. They do not freely match with just any binding site. Together we form an enzyme, and without enzymes life cannot function the way it should. I love my binding site, and pretty much without it; I'm useless.

:)

right now.

Reaching for the extraordinary in this ordinary-driven life.

to be continued..

c'est la vie.

Each day shows me that life will keep on moving, no matter how much you wish it didn't.
I won't let myself fall behind.
I will live this life. Love this life. Enjoy this life. Be thankful for this life, and for the lives of those around me.
I believe that things happen for a reason.
If I dont receive what I want, I know that God has something better in place for me. I believe that God has a better plan for me than what I have for myself.
I have realised that I need to move forward.
If you're facing the past, you're turning your back on the future.
I will face the future, but will keep in mind what I've learnt from my past. Will keep with me the memories; the laughs. Will remember the tears, but will smile about them.
I will miss some aspects of the past, but I will not dwell upon them. Afterall, if those things didnt last, they were most likely not meant to, they were probably only there to show me something about myself, to show me that there are better things.

This is for you: It hurts me a little how much things have changed, but I am starting to learn more about myself and what I need. You're relying on my patience, on me waiting, but I need to move forward, rather than wait for something in the past to come back. There will be better things, for me and for you. You appear to be taking steps forward, and I need to aswell. I just hope you realise that I will not be waiting forever, because things change, we both know that. So the best way to fix it is, 1. to either give it heaps of time and just wait for it to hopefully fall into place, or, 2. do something about it.

A reason to think..

Just a thought;

Everything happens for a reason.
There's always a reason why someones upset, why someones sad, why someones angry, why someone smiles, why someones happy.

You even say so too, "there's gotta be a reason why you're laughing.." do you accept and believe when that person replies "no reason" ?

There's reasons why people study, why people travel, why people communicate, why people like mangoes.

There's reasons why people smell,, why people taste, why people feel.. So that, in itself, just shows that there's a reason for life.. If there's a reason why people fart.. Well heck.. There's definitely gotta be a reason why someone exists on this earth. So there, what have you got to say to that huh! :)

Peace&Love

PS. My bad if "farts" wasn't the best example hehe

motion.

I've found myself only doing what I'm meant to be doing.. And at the same time, I'm not really doing a great job at it. I know I could be putting in more effort.. But I just ain't feeling it.

A theory could be that it's because there's just so much that needs to be done.. And everytime you take a step, another thing pops up. I'm just like "blerh! I can't be bothered".

Shame on me!

I know that I have to do more, I want to do more.

And I guess at this stage, I have to gather up my motivation.. And just do it.

I have to gather up my emotions again.. Because at this point.. I just don't feel anything. Even at school, I just go to lectures and pracs.. Do what I have to do.. And that's it. I've found I haven't even made much of an effort to communicate with others.

And I know now, that it has to change.

I will change it. I know how it felt before.. And I miss it. It will be better this time :D
Hopefully.

Okay, maybe after mid-semester exams and tests. Because I have to focus on them.

But yes, I will start to live life more again. I havnt heard that in a while.. "live your life a little".

"Yes, it's easy to find people who exist.. but it's rare to find those who are actually living"

let's get this happening!

Peace&Love

merci beaucoup jsakcas.

I can't believe you told me that you don't know if you're coming back anymore.

I guess before, I just didn't want to hear it, but now that I'm thinking about it.. You said it.

Did you even realise you said it?

Thanks.